This week we had a Special Zone Conference and I have never been hit so hard about The Atonement. President Choi called up Elder Sorenson, our zone leader, and said,
“Elder Sorenson, imagine if your zone was 95% obedient and the other 5% is the natural imperfections and mistakes of human culture. There are 20 missionaries in your zone and each of them makes 5 little mistakes so…that puts 5 pushups on the board for each missionary.”
Elder Sorenson got on the ground and started doing 5 push ups for each of the 20 missionaries in the zone…100 pushups! This hit me hard! There is nothing like watching someone painfully push through 100 push ups because of things they didnt even do. It was only a few mistakes and sins from 20 missionaries but it adds up and builds pain for one person. This really hit me about my Savior Jesus Christ. He went through all the pains and sins of the world to pay the price for all of mankind so that we can repent and be forgiven! I was crying and felt the Spirit strongly as I had to count my own 5 sins when Elder Sorenson did the pushups for me. I am trying my best to be clean spiritually and temporally and cause the least amount of pain to everyone. I guess this really does mean taking my name and my will and giving it to the Lord and having Charity. I have been tested this week because everyone was so rude to us. Elder Kirk and I went into a gas station to get out of the rain for a second and the cashier yelled at us and told us we were a bunch of hypocrites in a cult. Every time someone does this to me I just get so angry and want to give up but I know I cant do that. Satan gets to me and I just try and let it go but it is hard for me to not get angry about it because I feel so attacked and sad. I have a lot to learn but this is all a learning process, that is what The Plan Of Salvation is… a plan of learning and a plan of happiness.